I’ve never written a blog about this(breathing) before. I’ve filled countless pages in my journal entries. I have poured my thoughts onto those pages no one would ever see. Always wrestling with words in the quiet of my own room. But tonight, tonight I put it out to the world. It's 1 a.m., and I’m here in bed, awake, and typing. Simply because I don’t know what else to do. I’m gasping for breath. Each single complete breathing is painful and strained than the previous. My chest is getting tighter. It's not cooperating as it was created to cooperate. I have been/still am desperately trying to force myself to sleep for the last two hours, hoping that drifting off to the slumber land would let my body forget this struggle, and remind my lungs how to properly function. Succeess? Little to no success. Sleep has abandoned me. I try to catch it, but the more closer I get, the far it drifts away from me. Eloi! I have opened my window. The air outside is cold, but what othe...