The Curious Mind.😊

August 2, 2025. So one day I will be married? Me? Me? Like me? The one who makes 10+ minutes voice notes debating on real soulmates and "marriage is a scam?" So one day I will be married? This thoughts hits me differently on different days. Sometimes it brings an exciting feeling that I can't totally resist. Other days I ask why in the world would I leave my grandma's home and commit to someone's son. So one day I will be married? Is this the version of me that will walk down the aisle? The one who overthinks the tone and mood in texts? The one who overuses emojis?🤭 The thought that one day, someone's son might wake up next to me, smell my breath, look at me while I am sleeping scares me. It's wild.  Weddings don't scare me. It's the "till death do us part." The part where we will say through it all, through it all. That we can fight and pray together again. The for better for worse? Tough stuff but they call that love? Marri...

I woke up so early today but didn't get up from the comfort of my bed. 45 minutes later, the sound of my alarm goes(I hate it). This is that moment when you are trying to reconsider all your dreams include those that don't allow you to keep the ones that you love. That odd moment when your body is still so weak and not ready for the day. Not at all. It's still dark. It's still cold. At around 4:58 a.m- ish, I roll out of my bed. Slowly. I reach out to the socket on the other part of the room to illuminate my room.  I didn't have the luxury of time today.  First task? Normal routine and then MY hair. Natural hair. It takes time. The shrinkage is always crazy. (If you have natural 4C hair you clearly know this feeling. You can't rush 'her'. She will break. She will fall. She will mess things around. You have to show up with water, leave in conditioner, and a pinch of patience or much much patience that you can't fully afford sometimes. I d...