I have held on to many things. People. Seasons. Plans. Money. Dreams. Past...... But I have learnt much along the way. I can lose people. For I have lost friends I absolutely thought were going to be a greater part of me. More so in futurity aspect. I can lose money. I have in the past but still survived. I can lose weight. I have in a great deal and kinda worked around it or accepted it. I can lose confidence. There are some great life instances that have made me doubt my confidence and abilities. I have even lost my faith and found it again. But one thing I have never wanted to lose... The only thing I feel is mine and mine to keep...The one I have feared to lose more than any plan, person, or dream... MY SMILE. Not the fake smile I give in awkward conversations to seem nice. Not the super polished grin people see on my sabbath pictures with the, " Thus may all ours Sabbaths be." Not the one in selfies or even photos. Not the one in a conversation where t...